Let's do the Native Indian Dance

Day after day I don't know why I start to get pissed about everything or anything for that fact.

Probably somethings have left me sad and bitter and I can't forget about it. It's annoying how some people get out of their way just to annoy you. I hate it. They have no life and should not be my friend. At all.

Frankly speaking I think my blog is a waste of time. Then again everything I do seems to be a waste of time. Why do I even bother doing what I am doing now? It makes not sense. It has no purpose.

I think only 5 people know about my current blog, why because I'm trying to keep some people who ask her little friends to say some shit on my blog. Karma now huh.
Oh and btw, you mean nothing. Even the ant in my room means more to me than you'll ever be. So stop being so fake. Stop trying to show off. It was quite hilarious you showed how stupid you are by confidently commenting that philadelphia is located in Australia. Oh and who uses "freaking" as a verb. Please spare me the stupidity.

We got it made @ 12:12 AM

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Saturday, February 18, 2006

Sick n Tired

Ok I think I wanna lay off fastfoods for awhile. Because they make me sick. And I can't be sick. Not now. Not ever. Bleah.

The week was, bitter sweet. Failed my driving with 6 demerit pts(What an idiot right?). Yap my friends are scolding me(mostly because I told them to.) But I got alot of encouragement. Thank you all. Thats the bitter part. I mean failing. The sweet part was you guys saying I'll make it. Yes I will. And of course Kim is always the sweet part of my life. Ok I don't wanna get to mushy. I was overly mushy on valentine's day. And the day after that. And after that. Haha.

Well I'm looking forward to next mth(Excluding exams) and to my attachement at citibank! Yay. It's such a great start for me. Soon 3 mths will pass and I will pass my driving and 3 mths will pass and I'll be going to Amercia(more or less confirmed)! Yay!

New hobby I have. Comic books

We got it made @ 1:42 AM

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Tuesday, February 14, 2006

bleah

I'm lagging behind my schedule(as usual), and my dad is starting to piss me off again.

I figured out one thing about successful parents, mainly my dad(besides the fact that he is always drunk), is that they will get jealous when they see people,even their children, do better than them.

Why I say this? Just the other day, my dad tried to show off his whatever knowledge. Everyone knows that you are nothing now even with your oh so wonderful grades. I think my aunt has the same illness. Something which I call "HASBEENenzia". It's were people who did well in school, did well at the start of they career and lead a pretty good life. BACK THEN. Now they are like any average person in Singapore. They are Has Beens and I think my dad is one. Yes I'm not doing brilliant now but I know I'll do far better than him when I work. I ain't sitting back.

Oh I realised I strayed off point. Ok back to the point why I said successful(or at least at a point in their lives) parents would get jealous of their children. I wanna start a cafe, then a restruant. He was quick(together with my aunt) to say I will fail. WHY? They are afraid that I will succeed. People who make it big are always competitive in nature and don't you think parents will be too against their children? And what about when I got Citibank for my intership? Haha he was quick to say, they will give him some marketing job. Haha stop this jealousy just cause you never worked for a bank when you were 19.

Yes dad you did well in the past. Let it go. You aren't that brilliant now. It's due to your nature why you are like that. You talk but you dont carry out. You show off but really you have nothing to brag about. You see. I will succeed. You're a Has Been and you should accept that. You could have made it big but chose the easy way out. Too bad both your sons will do much better.

I think not many people have given me true support except my mom, kim and myself.

We got it made @ 2:52 AM

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Saturday, February 11, 2006

SCREW YOU HIPPE!

arh I've promised myself that I'll start studying yesterday. But no I've occupied myself by, comforting kim(not a waste of time) and watching southpark(also not a waste of time,well actually it kinda is). Then today I slept till 3, wasted my day again. More southpark followed. Comforting thought I think she wants to be alone or something. Lan gaming. ...... DARREN STOP WASTING TIME ON UNESSESARY THINGS!

But this is why I love SouthPark.

Eric Cartman!
The little fat kid(OI, DONT CALL ME FAT) whose is just full of crap and has that annoying n very cute voice haha.

Darn do I miss her

We got it made @ 9:00 AM

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Wednesday, February 08, 2006

It's a big spoiler

What a spolier to my day, 1st I can't wake up. As usual. I gotta really kick this habit of not being able to wake up on time. 2nd before I left it rain. Oh boy does it suck. But like every bad thing that happens, everything will always be ok. Heh

We got it made @ 7:11 PM

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Monday, February 06, 2006

Be Yourself

I think the most important thing about being a person is to be true to yourself.
I've found out that I will never be anything else other than me. Unless it is in me to do it or I have ability and chance to do it. It has to be all me and nothing else.

I realise now that trying to be someone that I am not, or hope to be won't help me much because they are only thoughts and wishes. What is important is that I stay true to myself and not try to be someone else.

People all conform to society. People all want to do what they think can and what they are not in order to gain that little bit of pleasure in attention. Who wouldn't want to gain instant fame and popularity when you can sing?or dance?or act? As long as the whole world is watching, everyone would'nt mind doing something that they think they like just cuz of the mentioned but its not them. They aren't being true to themself. Oh btw I'm speaking generally.

Ok if you are doing it because its your passion then thats being true to yourself.But I think most people really just want that attention.

I always thought since she's well known(not on purpose), that everyone who wants to know her tries to be well known here and there in anyway. I was thinking of this and I thought it'll be nice to be well known as well. Footballer in the EPL? My own MTV show? You know whatever man. Why I thought about such things? Cause I thought that if I were to be with someone who is relatively popular who has friends doing things to be on tv, I'm really no one. But as I thought, that isn't who I am. I love soccer. I love MTV. But thats not who I'm meant to be, or what. And that I'd rather her and other people like me for who I am rather than who I am not.

So no matter what just be true to yourself.

We got it made @ 10:32 AM

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I've never missed anyone so much before

We got it made @ 4:40 AM

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Saturday, February 04, 2006

Rescue

You are the Son of light
I can't be left behind
No one else will do
I will take hold of You
I need You, Jesus
Come to my rescue
Where else could I go?
There's no other name by which I am saved
Capture me with grace
I will follow You
My heart is Yours for life
I need Your hand in mine
No one else will do
Lord, I put my trust in You
I need You Jesus
Come to my rescue
Where else could I go?
There's no other name by which I am saved
Oh capture me with grace
I will follow You
This world has nothing for me
This world has nothing for me
This world has nothing for me
(I will follow You)
This world has nothing for me
I need You Jesus
Come to my rescue
Where else could I go?
There’s no other name by which I am saved
Capture me with grace
I will follow You
Oh I need You Jesus
To come to my rescue
Where else could I go?
There’s no other name by which I am saved
Capture me with grace
Won't You Capture me with grace
I will follow You
I will follow You
This world has nothing for me
This world has nothing for me

Rescue - Newsong

Ok usually I don't post Christian songs up.
But I think they are important to me.
Gwen will probably be going..Did Jeremy do something to you?
Haha no Gwen. Its all me.

As you can see I felt pretty bumed this afternoon.
And I was engaging in songs which made me feel sad and depress.Thats worst.

But then I decided why did I let myself be so bumed.
The devil was feeding on my self loathing and making me lose faith in everything I believed in the big man up there. He knows that I will be affected heavily if he played around with that special someone. As much as the big man knows about our heart's feeling, so does that horny bastard.
So I decided pray, and change from Linkin Park to Hillsongs.
And I decided to practice my drums for awhile. Immediately I felt, great. That feeling of being down was completely gone. And I stated I will not think twice about putting my faith in the big man. I will not try to rescue things myself. I know thats not a good idea. I'll just have faith. Now, everyone knows I miss her so much. And that I hardly spend time with her and that was how that horny bastard used that feeling to make me think, she'll drift away and will never love you again. Where is you God?Haha you big fat loser. You won't succeed. He made me think so negative that I almost wanted to give up that very second. But then after I pray I thought, what or rather who was the main reason that I even got a chance and who should be the main reason of this relationship. No not me, not her. The big man.Yes I trusted everything to him and I will not again think twice about doing things my own.

The world is crazy and mad. I think only the big man can save me from the madness. Thus the song. He placed all the special people in my life already and I treasure all of you. I don't think I will meet anymore very special people. Esp when I work.

Well it's a rather religious and sappy post. But hey! What do you care I'm me and I don't need you to tell me what to do. Haha.

We got it made @ 4:32 AM

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I'll never let you know why I'm screaming inside.
You'll always be the only one.

Negativity is eating me up now.
And I don't like it.
I hate it in fact.
I hate this feeling.

We got it made @ 12:24 AM

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Friday, February 03, 2006

Jamie Oliver has the gnarliest kitchen counter I've ever seen. His bin is built into it. With just a pop, the lid comes off and he throws his junk there. He chops on the countertop and leaves little mess because its so spaceous.

Yes Im gonna have something like that too.

We got it made @ 10:15 PM

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2.4 3.2 4.8..10 click

Ok today is my 3rd day straight running 2.4 km. I havent started out slow like last time. I thought its no time to lose. I will countine until I can run 10km without complaining much. Like what I used to do. Once. Run from home to Siglap sec and back. That is really far. Haha.

Anyway BA open house was fun. See all the little children trying to know about poly. Its cute. Haha. I can't imagine I was once like that

We got it made @ 8:53 AM

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